WTF ???!!!

Going to be a random very long one, I think. Don't say I didn't warn you.

Splain a few things to me - first, why the hell are men the way they are? Now I know there isn't a real reason, actually there is, the broken X chromosome, but besides that what makes them so bizarre? I realize men think the very same things about us, but since this is my blog, I'm correct in my thinking :). U know there are many people in my life in different types of relationships - each and every one of them has something to say (complaints and desires). True, if you had everything, life would probably be pretty damn boring, but........ Better yet, what exactly is marriage all about? And why get married if things may change WTF is up with crazy stuff coming out after the marriage - drinking, drugs, porn, laziness, stupidity, etc. I mean, hell if those things can remain hidden until u are for so long and then surface, for the worse - cause u know its a slim chance they will change for the better!! (And for those of you who are wondering, 'he' was not the reason for this post....Just things I've been pondering lately).

Tonight I listened to a friend - one of several I know that got married this year - and I'll be honest, it was crazy! I know they say if u make it through the first year, you'll survive, but still. I don't know if I can be tested like that and NOT turn around and say F off! I'll see u again never. I mean how can someone be one thing before you are married, and so totally different afterwards? What the hell gives them the right?? And God knows - it hasn't just been this one, I've heard many things from many others that down right scare the hell outta me and wonder if its really worth trusting someone. After all trust is what your relationship should be based on.

Maybe she's just right - some of us, and quite frankly the majority of the women in 'my' circle are independent and strong-willed. We don't need a man to survive, we don't need a man to make us who we are. Not saying we don't want one to spend the rest of our lives with, but ONLY if he respects who we are and supports who we are (and vice versa). Makes a whole lotta sense when I think of what someone else said the other day - she likes her freedom and independence. A relationship, and even bigger a marriage, is gonna mess up life as you know it - and do u really want that?? I told someone recently (cause they asked) that I handle change 'ok'. I mean change is change and it's gonna happen if we like it or not.......And hell I've been through enough - it's just not always what you want, u know?

On another note, how come when you have been loyal and devoted a lot of time and energy into something......That u end up being screwed? I'm going to have to leave this a little vague, but some of you will know what I'm talking about. And quite frankly its not fair, and I still have yet to decide what to do about it.

Doses of stupid:
1. Lady running the cash register at the food counter in Costco. Honestly, that's probably enough said, but I'll elaborate. First, Id like to say the line at the food counter was LONGER than the f'ing check out lines. Now that should have been the first clue that something wasn't right. Never the less, my sister and I proceed to get in line anyway, I mean hell all we wanted was some pizza and a hot dog - fairly simple, right? Apparently not, at least for the two ladies behind the counter.
2. WTF is up with those dumb ass cops on 270 pulling people over - I have finally witnessed in the flesh what my fellow bloggers have been tripping on over the past few months. Dude, I know we don't pay cops nearly enough to be that damn careless with their lives!!
3. My cat, cause the retard has recently learned how to jump up onto the railing of my balcony and walk his fat ass across it like he owns the place......Only now I'm waiting for his fatness to throw his balance off and him to go overboard!!

Enough for now, it's late, and unfortunately I have to work. Trying to blog more regularly now. Peace.