I just love this commercial.........

I only wish I was able to download the commercial instead of these two goofy ass looking old ladies.

Duh...........

I've seen/heard a few lines lately that have made it necessary for me to state the following:

I HAVE attended:
St. Judes (grade school)
Academy of the Holy Cross (High school)
High Pointy University (BS in Biology)
Marymount University (AAS in Nursing)

I HAVE NOT attended the following:
Ivy League School of Bull-Shit
Human, but still Amazingly Gullible school
Sounds good to me when I say it school (but looks way stupid in print)

I temporarily attended the :
I don't want to listen to anyone else because I'm love blind school
Although I'm stressed/tapped to the max, I still put your dumb ass first school

At least I can say I've learned the err of my ways, and that I'm doing very well in "Here's my life and this is how I'm living it school". Some of you may figure out who I'm pinpointing in this post, others may not, but I know who I'm poking at and that's all that matters!!

The past week

It's not that I'm a slacker or anything, its that between 645 pm on the 18th and 12 noon yesterday, I managed to work SEVENTY SIX HOURS...................

Needless to say I didn't do a damn thing over those seven days, other than cramming a date in on Sunday which was nice! And I ate wayyyyyy too much Mama Lucia's - that place can make anyone fat with the amount of food they serve~!

Passed my EKG test and can now take my patients to the floor with the transporter, how cool is that?? One month to go and I'm on my own! Freaking out, but getting excited all at the same time!

Chillin this weekend, was supposed to beach it, but plans changed. Will do that soon though, cause I'm going to be feeling the need for sunshine!

On a side note, I was stopped at a light tonight after I left the grocery store and I looked out my passenger window to see a beautiful Monarch butterfly just flying around right there outside my window. Couldn't help but think it was Dad dropping by to say hello - and I got all warm and fuzzy and had a big smile on my face. Just thought I'd share!

Happy holiday weekend everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats just plain WRONG

Got gas for $2.99 a couple of days ago and thought that was a "good" price. And i know we all wish we could go back to those lower prices but PLEASE lets not let it ever come to this.

I'd rather you run out of gas on 270 like Jason. At least then we might be able to forgive you, and all enjoy a good laugh.

Grey's quotes/comments

Well the two parts of the season finale were both awesome.

Quotes (in no particular order this week)

She-Shepard: "I'm sorry I've got a question to ask. And I'm having a hard time, and I really don't want to know the answer, but I need to know. Are u sleeping with my husband?" Meredith: "No not since I knew he was married"

Monologue on Anger: “So what makes anger diff from the 6 other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really, u get into a sin like envy or pride and u only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and u will only hurt yourself or one or two others. But anger, anger is the worst - the mother of all sins. Not only can anger drive u over the edge, u can take a lot of other people with u. "

Ortho-doc: "I have verbal diarrhea and I'm a moron"

She-Shepard: "The only people who don't know that Derrick loves Meredith are Derrick and Meredith" (pause) "How can I compete with that?"

Christina (to Burke): "That was my best supportive girlfriend, u kind of ruined it with medicine"

Shephard to Burke: "Preston Xavier Burke" (you know its serious business when it’s the FULL name)

Bailey: "You fools better have a GOOD explanation for this!" "Step away from the patient"
Izzie: “I can’t; I have to pump his heart"

Burke: "Shepherd...."
Shephard: "You don’t have to thank me. I'm sure one day you will repay the favor."
Burke: "I was going to say try not to kill me"

George: "I knew that you didn't feel that way even when we were in bed that night. But, I figured one night with you was better than never. So will you just quit saying that u are sorry because u didn’t know any better; but I did. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry Meredith."

Izzie (to Denny): "We should date and have sex, plenty of sex!"

Denny: "For the last 5 years doctors have made each and every choice for me. Now, I have a heart that works the way it’s supposed to, and I get to make my own choices. So what I choose is you. You are who I want to go to bed with at night and wake up with and do everything in between that with. I get a choice now, I get to chose u, and I chose Izzie Stevens." (Ok, this is so romantic, and so awesome; something that every girl dreams to have said to her and truly meant. And this crazy chick walks away!)

Denny: "I tricked her into marring me, how smart am I?"

The chief's niece: "Be kind to him, he loves me. I've been loved and that's something everyone should have once in their life."

George: "Do u want to go to prom with me?"
Ortho-girl: "No George no I don’t want to go to prom with you" (later on.....)
Ortho-girl: “I said I love u I said it out loud to your face and now I’m getting avoided.
George: “I’m not avoiding you. Stop fighting me"
Ortho-girl: "What, are u going to say it back?"
George: "No, I'm not going to say it back. If I say it now, it will just be because you said it. When I say I love u I want to mean it because........ U just have to give me some time to mean it."

McVet: "I just get from sun up to sun down; I used to never be able to plan for the future. But Right now looking at u, damn I have all kinds of plans."

McDreamy: "Meredith"
Meredith: "Leave me alone”
McDreamy: "Meredith, I just want to make sure u are alright"
Meredith: "No, I'm not alright because u have a wife and u called me a whore and our dog died and stop looking at me. U are looking at me and u watch me. Just stop"
McDreamy: "U think I want to look at u? That I wouldn't rather be looking at my wife? I am married. She doesn't driving me crazy, she doesn't make me sick to my stomach thinking about my vet touching her with his hands. You have no idea how bad I want to NOT be looking at u"

Karev: "The minute his heart stopped beating, he stopped being Denny. I know u loved him. I know he loves u and a guy who loves u like that doesn’t want u to do this to yourself. (then he picked Izzie up and held her)" (gosh, they are really trying to bring his character back from a-hole status. but what he did was awesome, and heart-wrenching at the same time)

Izzie to the chief: "It was me, I cut his LVad wire. I did and no one helped me. U know, I thought I was a surgeon, but I am not. So I quit."

Peanut gallery comments:
**On Meredith/McDreamy: I cant believe they got it on..........So going to make them both even more f'ing confused.........don't I know all about that (ok, Im not the only one, but I am one of the more recent ones)
**Those mean tv execs went to commercial on Denny’s flatline (the second one) o man was I pissed.
**I think I cried harder when Denny died than anyone other than Izzie did - craziness
**No girl should ever be stuck in that position that Meredith was in tonight. Completely, completely unfair. The girl has for sure done some things wrong, as have we all, but.........Having to look at the man u fell in love with (but wasn't/didn’t want to be in love with you) to one side and the man who is falling in love with you on the other. Having to choose, that’s murder.

Awesome weekend

Well, this weekend was full of fun stuff. Had a date Friday night, and yes that says FRIDAY night and I had a great time.

Saturday I had pinning at school. Was pretty neat (even though my pin isn't in yet...) - was kinda nice being recognized for the program of study we were in and the fact that nurses are super special people, at least I like to think we are! About 11 Saturday night Mom and I decided to take my cap & gown out of the package to iron it so we didn't have to deal with it Sunday...............Only to find out the one they gave me was for someone SIX FOOT ONE.......Not a good thing. It was genuinely FLOOR length on me! Needless to say we were up till 1 hemming the damn thing and tacking up the arms since my hands were truly hidden in the damn thing!!

Graduation was awesome. Some some people I haven't seen in quite some time, some from the first semester I was in school. Nice to know that although some didn't make it through the program, the majority of us hung in and made it through. It was also AWESOME that Colin Powell was our speaker, and I got to SHAKE his HAND!! How awesome! He was a great speaker really brought some life to the day (cause I think graduations are boring as hell). Already decided if I do finish my BSN, I'm not freaking walking.............And probably not for an MSN. The only thing I may consider walking again for would be a PhD (and yes u can get one in nursing), an NP, or if I decide to become a Nurse anesthetist. Its gonna have to be something BIG for me to go through all that crap again!

Anyway, it was a great weekend and although I've been working and I've had my diploma since February sometime, the whole experience was way cool!

Grey's 5/7

I'm depressed, only 2 episodes remain in the season, but I'm WAY excited they are two nights in a row next weekend!!! Maybe I'll have a party or something??!?!?!?!

Here we go!

McVet: "Drink this and try to act like u aren't scary and damaged"
Meredith: "I'm not scary or damaged"

Izzie: "4 dates and 2sleepoverss at his house and no sex?"
Meredith: "Not even a kiss good night!"
Izzie: "O, I'm proud. I'm like a proud mama" (this sounds soooo like something my friends would say to me!!)

Karev: "The she-Shepard just comes right in here and pulls me off a surgery?"
Bailey: "U burned the she-Shepard, she burns u back"

Meredith to McDreamy: "U don't get to call me a whore. When I met u I thought I had found the person I was gonna spend the rest of my life with. U left me. U chose Addison. I had to repair the damage u had done. I make NO apologies for how I repaired what u broke." (sounds like a real good way to explain it to me!)
McDreamy (ok he's not so McDreamy anymore): "This thing with u and me, its over."
Meredith: "Finally."

And some comments from the peanut gallery (me):
**Why is it NOT okay that Christina fell asleep when she had finished, but men can fall asleep (or finish) whenever they chose (girls finished or not!)????!!!!!!!
**I'm gonna punch Karev - no joke I might just punch him thru the damn TV! (Ok maybe he has slightly saved himself by delivering that baby without Addison.)

Been deflowered...... in the ER world that is.......

Tonight I had my first cardiac arrest patient - and yes, he died. In the ER (at least ours), you're no longer a 'virgin' once this happens.

For clarification (cause its not something most people have a clear understanding of and according to Kristine ( :) ), I cant speak medical talk to everyone "u know we all haven't been to nursing school!!" , a patient having a heart attack (MI) is not the same as someone in cardiac arrest. Heart attack is when an area of the heart is deprived of oxygen because of a blockage in a vessel that serves that area - and therefore the area of tissue dies. Yes, a heart attack can lead to cardiac arrest. Cardiac arrest is literally when your heart stops beating - the electrical component of the heart stops working. At that point, blood is not moving throughout your body - not to your brain, your lungs or your tissues. Not a good thing. For starters people who have a true cardiac arrest - unless medical attention is received within a FEW minutes - rarely make it out alive; something like 95% of people die before they reach the hospital. Sad & scary fact, but true.

Back to tonight; so when I picked up the zone I had tonight, I knew I had the room we save for codes - meaning if one came in, it was going to be mine. This was only the second time I think I've had that zone. Had the other trauma zone numerous times, but not this one. I can't say I was shocked when we got the call, last week there were several and the nurses that have been there a while say they come in droves. So I had a feeling there Doesn't be one. Doesn't mean I was happy or looking forward to it. This is however, my job. It was like 1030 when we got the call over the box from the ambulance telling us they were on their way with an estimated arrival time of 7 minutes. I was just about frozen in my shoes and OOOOHHH SSSSHHHHHHHHH******TTTTTTT was all I could get through my mind.

The ambulance rolled through the door at 1046, and I sort of begun taking it all in. First, let me say there are very 'few' things for a nurse to do in a code (its pretty much the same procedure each time we have one, there is only so much u can do depending on what physical state the patient arrives in). Hook up the heart monitor (BP cuff, Pulse ox, EKG); hook up the defibrillator, get IV access, strip the patient, and O2. Dr's don't have a ton to do either - they get a tube down the patient's throat for airway access, call for meds to be pushed, call for shocking, access and few other things There were at least 2 doctors, 5 nurses and 3 techs in the room, along with the 'recorder' (who takes the notes on the exact times things occur). Being my first one, most of the other nurses in the room sort of jumped in doing things, and telling me why and what they were doing. Nurses also push the meds, fluids and shock the pt. when the Dr. orders it. We couldn't get IV access through a peripheral line (arm, hand, etc), so the Dr. put in a femoral (where your leg bends @ the hip) line - better, larger access anyway, but not done by a nurse. Once that was in we began pushing fluids and meds per the Dr. There is usually one nurse who only pushes the meds, and the others do whwasn'ter else is needed. I wasn't the med nurse, I honestly was taking it all in. At one point we got enough of a response on the EKG monitor for the patient to be shocked, so we did. And yes, their arms fly up and the body kind of jumps off the bed. Nothing happened. Pushed more meds trying to get a response, but still nothing. The tech doing compressions needed a break, so I got a chance to do some. The Dr. did, however call the TOD (time of death) at 11:10. We did everything we could, but it just didn't work. 25 minutes, and it was all over. (This patient was 72, had extensive cardiac history and had recently left the hospital, so there were physical reasons for the arrest.)

Although I didn't do a lot of hands on during the code, I did get to do compressions on a real person - COMPLETELY different from CPR training. I did have to help clean the body up and prepare it to be seen by the family. I did go with the Dr. to tell the spouse (and let me just say last week was NOT the week to have that on my plate). I got real choked up when the spouse began to bawl - thought I was going to lose it - but I sucked it up and reminded myself there will be days like this, doing what I do. I had to take the spouse to be with the body. I had to start the death coordination form, which includes calling the donor hotline and telling them someone died. I did have to ensure the chart was in order, and that there was a death certificate pulled aside for the Dr. who was going to come in and sign it. I did have to help take the body off the bed (in a body bag) and place it on the little thing that goes in the fridge. I did also have to work another 8 hours knowing that a patient of 'mine' died. Not by any fault of my own, but none the less, was gone.

I still love my job and what I do - but have a much better respect for the fact that some days I will go home having a 'not so good' feeling.

Butterfly Release

Dad's Memorial was awesome. A little bit of chaos cause all the balloons with the butterflies on the ends got tied up due to the wind!! We improvised and it all worked out. I've pasted some pictures in here, hope you can see the real butterflies along with the balloon ones. It was pretty cool.

Read some poems, released the butterflies, then the balloons, and then one last poem. After that we went and had a little party!!

Here's the video if u want to see it - in three pieces. The middle one is the longest, about 8 minutes(OK I JUST FOUND OUT THIS STOPS AT 2 MINUTES, WORKING ON FIXING THAT PART - RIGHT NOW IT DOESNT SHOW THE RELEASE - SORRY! WHEN ITS FIXED ILL POST A NOTE). Its the main part of the ceremony including when we released the butterflies and had the balloon release. Its also off my digital camera, so its not crystal clear, but u can hear the poems and such that we read.


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Here's some pics if you weren't there (and even if you were!)-
Balloons with butterflies on the ends (you might have to look close)

The family shot.

A poem written for Dad by my friend Adriana:

One Foot in Front of the Other

Ten years, Dad, with one foot in front of the other
Sometimes wishing you could carry me along the way.
I haven't always known which path to take or road to follow,
Or which words to keep to myself or say.
There have been times when I've needed you to talk to,
And I find myself holding pictures of times I wish we had more of.
The best I can do is pine through those memories
And bring up your gentle voice, your warmth, your love.
But your spirit gives me the courage and strength
To tread and charge with a heart full of conviction,
To follow my dreams, to respect myself and others
While I puddle jump life's harder transitions.
There have been times when I've needed a little Bronco
And times when I've needed to relax and step back,
And though it's harder to do with you up there rather than next to me,
I can still feel it when you pick up my slack.
I can tell when I notice butterfly wings flutter,
I can feel it when the sunshine breaks through the cloud,
I can smell it when I pump my gas at a Texaco,
And I know it when I raise my diploma up proud.
Ten years have slowed me down a little
I'm in no rush to let life just pass me by.
I keep looking back trying to recapture details,
Letting them fill the water in my eyes.
But, it's one foot in front of the other,
One sunrise and one sunset at a time.
I've got this one chance of a lifetime, Dad,
One hell of a mountain to climb.
And you'll be with me at every moment,
You've never strayed from side,
It's just that sometimes I have to remember,
That my eyes can't always see what's inside.

- Adriana Murphy
May 1, 2006

Grey's 4/30

O thank goodness they FINALLY showed us a new episode!! And man did I think it was a good one! Maybe its because I had to wait so long - or the lack of sleep I had, but I found numerous things hysterical.

Here's my quotes:

Meredith: "He's McVet"

Christina: " Burke, I laid on top of you NAKED last night, so why don't you act nostalgic about that!"

Meredith (to McVet): "No, I'm single and knitting"

Addison to Alex (the a-hole): "So just do your job with your mouth shut"

Meredith to Bailey: 'I'm knitting these days. Plus I'm thinking of going on a date with a vet"
Bailey: "Grey what makes you think I care?"

Meredith to McDreamy: "You know bad sex is not something wives want the dirty ex-mistress to know about"
McDreamy to Meredith: "Your not the dirty ex-mistress, you're a friend"


And finally in light of Dad's 10-year anniversary -

Denny (I think): "Life is too damn short to follow the rules"