What a ?? ( was gonna say day, then week, but ....)

I guess on the whole its been a damn good week (despite my earlier f-bomb post). This was my last week at work. Effective 5 pm today, I am no longer employed there; scary thing is my personnel file had already been filed in the terminated side (its the PC way to refer to quitting or getting fired, I don't like it, but that's what all the paperwork said!). I had several of the wonderful people I worked with take me to lunch, and had a group lunch where someone I can't stand actually said something nice about me (a lie I am sure...but)! I am now going to be a nurse. As people say, I am starting an entirely new chapter in my life. I don't know that life should be divided into chapters as such, more like segments or quarters, or something that isn't usually in such high numbers (as in 40 chapters to a book vs. 4 quarters to a game).

I think life is much more like quarters, the first quarter of your life (0-25 or so) you don't know what the hell u are doing, between learning about life and everything else, you are pretty much done for. I don't think that most people, and of course there are exceptions to this, decide what they want to do with their life until about their early/mid-twenties. And even if u do decide before then, u could quite possibly be in school until that time. I'm starting my next quarter just a little late, at least according to my schedule - I'm starting it now. The next 25 years ought to be my best - don't get me wrong, I am sure there will be several downers over them, but as far as experiences, this time should take the cake! I'm going to begin the career I've wanted and worked hard for, explore other countries, buy a house, get married, have kids (married OR not!), see my friends get married/have kids (cause most of em haven't yet!), and lord knows what else. And I stress NONE of those things are in a particular order. But its gonna be good times, and it's got to be less stressful and chaotic as the last 10 years of my life.

I do wake up some days and have this brief moment of shear fear......As in what the hell am I doing, I mean, I've changed careers, I'm changing living arrangements (AGAIN may I add), have new friends that are important to me (not that its taken away from the old ones!), and quite frankly feel like I've got no control! But the crazy thing is, I am COMPLETELY in control. I guess that's what happens when u finally get yourself where u want to be, u start questioning if that's the right place. Change - its inevitable, and trust me it sure as hell isn't a stranger to me......And I think considering the things that have happened over the last 10 years I've done pretty damn good with all the changes I've dealt with. I wont say I did it perfect, but I did it and its done - and I'm still kicking. I guess the bottom line is change (good or bad) is tough - it takes a toll and it makes u re-evaluate (thanks Tera!).

N e way - I'm looking forward to a little time not working, I'm sure it will bore the hell outta me after about day 2, but it will be nice to have some down time after the craziness I put myself through last year.