Random

It's been over a week since I've blogged and quite frankly I was saddened by that! This is a ramble and I do apologize, just going to be OOT for a bit and wanted to get this out of the way.

December is going to be a hard month.

Trisha Vincent is moving - well, I shouldn't even have to explain that one, but I will anyway. Being best friends with someone since 6th grade, and now she is leaving?? Not leaving to go to school like I did (with the intentions of returning), but moving to move to a new place. Trying something else for a change. On one hand I admire her, I may have lived in NC for 4+ years, but it was because I was there for school. It didn't last much past that - I came home. Even though with my crazy schedule these days, I don't see her or talk to her as much, we have always been able to pick up right where we left off; it was as if no time passed. I'm just afraid that familiarity might get lost when she starts her new life in a new town in a new state. I was crying on the phone today when Kristine and I got to talking about it - not going to be easy for anyone, but particularly us (and Trisha too).

My boss is leaving ACCA and moving to Upstate New York. This doesn't just mean I wont work with him any more, it means I wont see him much either. He has been an awesome light in my life and I am sad that I will no longer have it (at least not as bright as I do now). I am excited we are having a few shin digs for him, I just hope I have the ability to maintain my composure and not ball through them!

I'm expecting to finish Nursing school around mid-month: my finals are over on the 15th and on the 20th I can take my Comp exam to get out of the Marymount Program(fingers crossed). After that, they notify the state I've passed and from there I can apply to take my Boards, presumably sometime in early-mid January. I'll be honest, this scares me more than anything. I don't often get what I want (anymore), or at least set a goal and achieve it. That's not really been my style. Yes, I think I'm determined and strong-headed (stubborn, whatever u want to call it), but as far as goals and reaching them, not so much my thing. In a few short weeks, I'm going to be something that I've always wanted to be - and that is scary, exciting, intimidating and all kinds of other things.

I'm also facing the Christmas time alone.....Again.....And that doesn't make me so chipper either. Especially knowing that 'he' has someone else. Actually that hurts more than anything. Maybe next year it will be different, maybe next year the rich doctor I've always wanted will be in the picture, or someone new, from who knows where that just sweeps in and picks me right up off my feet (I think his name is Prince Charming)??!! I'm sure everyone knows since Dad died, Christmas has NEVER been the same, and it never will be again. That's the hardest part - I don't enjoy it so much anymore...The family is not all together, and Dad isn't here either. I just look forward to the days that I can spend with my own family (husband and kids, or hell just kids) and possibly achieve the happiness during the season I used to.

Oh, and I will have turned 3 from 30 a few days before December begins, and damn it I'm not even CLOSE to being married or having kids!! Ok,enough depressing stuff already - I hope you all have a fantastic THANKSGIVING - I am sure I will be in a food coma about 6pm Thursday, so don't expect me to answer any calls coherently!

xoxo, Beth